I've started doing exercise, and I must tell you...it doesn't feel right. It hurts and I feel like my head's going to explode...is that even normal? I know that I suck at sports and maybe that's the reason...but is it unhealthy or will I get used to it?

Yesterday I tried to write a poem quickly, and well I don't know if it turned out well. I usually take my time for writing stuff, but this time I tried to change my writing process...so I had to really focus. This meant...no food, no tv, no dancing, no singing...while I was writing. Here's the final result, let me know what you think:

Self-Esteem Decayed

The spirit within feels deeply unloved,
As the frail body alone keeps standing.
Her own eyes are judging: "She'll never be loved."
Disgusted by the reflection staring.

Words keep pounding: "She's the one to blame."
"Not easy to love, she's tough, she's afraid".
Agonizing in her corner of shame,
Unreachable, her self-esteem decayed.

Ugly and broken, she rejects herself,
Craving for love, but nobody will dare,
To touch her thin skin that's harming itself,
Her fool pain, nobody deserves to share.

If you're wondering, why I wrote this... one day I was standing in front of the mirror, and I hated what I saw. And the worst thing was that I realized that nobody will ever love me, because I don't even love myself. It was, and still is pretty sad...but still true.

By the way, I wasn't sure about the title, my options were: "She rejects herself", "Fool pain", and "Self-Esteem Decayed".

XoXo

Gaby