Ok, it seems like I've been doing stupid things lately. This time, I don't feel that guilty. I just can't believe I did it. Why does that sentence seems so familiar?

I think I mentioned before my friends and I were going out on Friday night (yesterday). And we went, it was just us girls. So what went wrong? Well... long story short: I got drunk and kissed a stranger, and one friend did the same...with the same stranger! What the hell...

The thing is, I don't feel guilty or bad because I did it, I feel bad because I've lost my good girl image. My friends always say that I'm the good girl, I'm not that good, but well, they didn't know. So, yesterday they were all shocked, and somehow I couldn't help it. So goodbye good girl.

XoXo
Gaby

P.S. Remember the guy who likes me? I think I could like him, the other day we were talking and he seems nice, and he's like really appropriate. I always have the feeling that for some reason he will stop liking me though.

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Yesterday was such and overwhelming day. I spent most of the day being stressed because of homework, things I had study, and the McDreamy-Crooked Teeth incident. In the end it all sort of worked out, well, kind of.

Ok, so... Remember the McDreamy-Crooked Teeth incident? It totally blew up in my face. Long story short: McDreamy thinks I lied about the whole thing. I thought he would be mean to me because of this, but he was "cool" about it. So it was okay. But it's not THAT okay because I didn't lie.

And the other thing... Remember my stupid perfect movie-like thing? It's everything but perfect. Turns out, that when this guy (let's call him movie guy) said that his friend liked me, he was saying the truth, it was his friend and not him. So let me tell you how it happened.

I was doing homework with Danny, and then movie guy arrives with a friend. The moment that he introduced his friend, I knew it... It was his friend and not him who liked me. Danny realized it too but she kept being annoying about it, making fun of the guy because he likes me, she made the most illogical comments... and really thought I didn't notice at all. I kept pretending I had no idea of what was going on, I really didn't know what to do, and the whole thing was embarrassing so it was the best thing I could think of.

I was so busy and stressed because of homework, that I didn't pay much attention to him. But just the idea of someone liking me that way (not knowing me), is so weird. I mean, I had never ever noticed this guy before, and he likes me? Anyway, I was a little upset because it was not the movie guy, and even more upset because the movie guy seems to like another friend. On the other side the guy that does like me seems good, he's cute, and nice.

Meanwhile, Danny told everyone (all classmates) about this guy who likes me ... that's what she calls "express gossip". Oh, and I think my friends asked them (these two guys) to go out on Friday, and they keep telling this guy that he has to go because I'm going. And even though, I love being the center of attention from time to time, I don't know what to say when my friends keep asking me if I like him, and saying he's not ugly (their words, not mine).

I know one thing, I will not tell them I'm considering it, that would really set them off. But truth is, maybe, I mean..he's cute, seems nice, and he likes me. So, we'll see.

XoXo
Gaby

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I did something really really bitchy, and I truly regret it. It's not THAT bitchy, but it IS bitchy to me, because I'm not a bitch on a daily basis. Okay. Stop with the bitchin'.

So, there's this guy I hate, despise, and can't stand. He's so conceited, he thinks he's the best, and he's so mean. He has laughed at me several times, and that's the reason why I don't speak to him at all, well...sometimes I'm mean too. But what am I supposed to do? Be good to him? Hell no!

Okay, now...Remember McDreamy (a really cute guy)?

This guy I hate (let's call him Crooked Teeth) totally hates him, and I've concluded that the reason why he hates him is that McDreamy is hot, smart, cool, nice, cute and.... wait, what was I talking about? Oh yeah, and Crooked Teeth is nothing compared to him. Most of the guys envy McDreamy, but not to the point of hating him, so Crooked Teeth is quite pathetic.

Anyway, last Friday he was talking trash about adorable McDreamy, saying that we were all (all of his students) sick of him. Hello! That's only him! So, later that day... I was leaving school and saw McDreamy, and he said hi...Oh my God...so nice, right? Oh, yeah. But that's not it.

After that, I sort of started telling him about this Crooked Teeth guy, and what he was saying about him, and how he hated him. I can't believe I did it, that's so unlike me. And what worries me is the fact that it could turn into a big problem, because McDreamy has some power over us (not because he's hot, but because he's kind of our teacher), and he could focus all of his anger on Crooked Teeth. That would be great, and I would really enjoy it if it wasn't my fault, but basically it was entirely my fault. I never do stuff like this (creating big drama), I tend to let someone else do the dirty job, and I always thought that sooner or later everyone would realize what an idiot Crooked Teeth is.

So...I'm a little worried about tomorrow. What I really hope is that no one finds out that it was me, or that it happened.

Lessons learned:

• Not to make Danny's ideas mine, yeah, it was her idea on the first place. It just made sense at the moment, and I had the opportunity and did it. Dammit!
  
• Let someone else do that bitchy things that I obviously can't do without turning everything into guilt.
• Not let my hatred for Crooked Teeth and my love for McDreamy change my behavior.
• If I ever do something bitchy again, and I think I will, do not feel this guilty about it.
  

XoXo
Gaby

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A few days ago I blogged about a movie-like encounter between me and a cute guy. Remember him? Guess what?!

A friend told me he actually likes me. Can you believe it? What if it is true? That would be even more movie-like.

This is how it went.

The other day he was talking to Danny (one of my girlfriends lately) outside the classroom, and I was there waiting for Danny to finish the talking so we could leave together for lunch. And suddenly he said: "Oh, by the way, I don't know her name (he meant me) ". Then my friend introduced us, and I smiled and said hi. And he said one of his friends liked me. I never know what to do when people say things like that, so I couldn't possibly tell you what was my reaction. So, I said nothing. It was a bit awkward.

Later that day Danny told me she had asked him who liked me, but he didn't say. And she threatened him (yeah, that's Danny), and told him that if he didn't tell her she would tell me it was him. And he was fine about it. I don't know why Danny concluded it was him who liked me. But, what if it is him? Oh, wait, but what if he's not?

If it is him, that would be movie-like perfect. Don't you think? What if that day he smiled at me he did it for the same reason I did? What if we liked each other from the very first moment? I don't know if stuff like this actually happens. It seems way too good to be true, and quite corny, so if you want to throw up after reading this post I will totally understand it.

Anyway, I know I shouldn't get my hopes high, but it's too late.

XoXo
Gaby

P.S. You noticed how for once in this blog I mentioned a name? I know it's not that much, but it's somehow relieving.

It seems like I've been talking about guys too much these days. I'm sorry but I'll do it again. This time it's about something that's really bothering me, and this is the only place where I'll accept it.

It's about another guy, someone I haven't mentioned before. So, this is the third guy I mention here (lately).

Here it is. We're kind of friends, and I say kind of because we don't usually "talk talk", and by this I mean, talking about things that matter. We just get along really well, we keep joking and playing. Lately I've been wondering if he likes me, and even wondering if I like him. Do I? I hope not, because I've realized he doesn't like me at all. He keeps talking about his girlfriend and about all the girls he think are hot (and even asked for my help with some of them), and he hasn't really showed some kind of interest on me, there's just some weird vibe, which I may be confusing. So, why on Earth did I think he was interested? He's too good to me. I've concluded he's just that way and I'm not used to people being that good to me (I know, pathetic).

Anyway, I hope I don't like him, that can't be good.

XoXo
Gaby

P.S. I guess I'll stick with lumberjack. He looked really good today, and he was funny. He wasn't even talking to me, but I still listened, and he was funny and cute.

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So, who's lumberjack? A cute guy from school, I think I haven't blogged about him before. So, let me tell you a little about him. He's this 4th year student, very smart. I think he's very attractive, but deep inside I know I'm the only one who sees him that way. I know he's kind of a freak/nerd but for me, he's more like a freak/nerd/cute. I don't know if he's nice or mean though, I've seen both behaviors, so, I'll have to find out.

Anyway, today I found out he is single...and I'm happy about it. Awww... my lumberjack... Oh, I forgot to tell you, why I'm calling him lumberjack. The other day he was wearing those lumberjack shirts. You know.... like the one on the picture.
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XoXo
Gaby

I shared my secret with one of my closest friends this afternoon. I thought it was a big important secret, but it's not. She wasn't surprised or anything. What secret? You ask. Well, Forever 17 is one of my most significant secrets and a part of my life that nobody knows of.

Just the thought of somebody reading this, somebody who knows me in real life, I just can't imagine what I'd do. But I've just realized, that maybe it's not a big deal. I mean, is this blog as interesting and revealing as I think it is?

I think it's a normal blog about a normal life for anyone who doesn't know me, but I've always thought that people who know me in real life would find here something they don't know about me. But, what do I know? Maybe I'm not as mysterious as I think I am. Maybe I'm predictable and transparent. And that's scary... that would mean that people see the depressed, lonely, and scared person I am, not to mention self-centered.

Now, I don't know what I'll do. I just told her that I had a blog but didn't tell her how to find it, so I can get out of it. I think I have an idea, I'll just give her a better secret. I just have to think about one. Any ideas?

XoXo
Gaby

Maybe I'm overreacting, but it feels good. It was just a simple thing, maybe many simple things that made this a good day. I'll just tell you one, which is enough, at least it was for me.

Today, I was part of one of those movie encounters, when the girl looks at him when his looking at her and then, they smile to each other. So nice... It made my day. Especially because it was this guy I had seen before and I thought he was really cute, and then out of nowhere it just happened. It really took me by surprise, I'm not lying.

I'll confess that there are times when I keep staring at the guy who's coming my way so he will look into my eyes and then...ta-dah! Eye contact! That never works by the way ¬¬. This time it worked so much better and it was so movie like, because it wasn't planned at all. And it wasn't even the kind of situations were you just smile to be polite, or to make the situation less uncomfortable. It just was so movie like.

Maybe this is a stupid post, but I don't really care. I'm too happy and nothing can take this away from me. =p

XoXo
Gaby

P.S. A friend knows him so I'll ask her for some kind of help, and I'll give you details tomorrow, if there are any.

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So, what do you think about gossip? I don't know about you, but I used to despise it. That has changed though.

I've got to admit that I'm loving drama lately, it's a feast. I talk about it on and on. A friend of mine takes it a little bit further, she even creates a little more drama by adding some details to the story and then...a domino effect takes place, something that we love to watch, and to talk about afterwards.

Last week there was a love triangle within our circle of friends, and that was basically delicious. It was quite tasteful...the girlfriend broke up with the boyfriend after cheating on him with his best friend. Oh, yummi, yummi. And the evidence...exquisite. There were text messages, eye witnesses, and pictures (well, almost). The funniest part....(let's call it dessert): after all this evidence they (the cheater and the best friend) still had the nerve to not only deny it but pretend to be the victims. As I said before, yummi.

So, if you're sane, you will find this gossip obsession quite disturbing and wrong. And I know it is wrong believe me, but lately it seems like it's all I have and I can't stop it. Between classes, tests, and assignments, I don't have time for normal things, and I spend some of my time finding out about the latest gossip around me...boring (snacks), or scandalous (lobster). But they all help me get through the day. So...guilty?

I just wanted you to know, and the fact that I blog about it doesn't mean I'm not a little bit ashamed. I don't even know how it happened, but it has to end, not today but someday.

XoXo
Gaby

P.S. I didn't even mention Perez Hilton and TMZ, but well, you know...


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I've considered quitting this blog so many times, I don't even know why am I still blogging. There are so many reasons for quitting but the most significant lately is the fact that I have no time for this, I don't even have time for my school activities. I hate neglecting this blog, I really do. I hate not blogging often, and I wish I could do so everyday. But things have gotten a little hectic.

I've had other ideas, like replacing this blog with a new one but in Spanish, or starting a new one that isn't private so my friends could read it. Believe it or not, sometimes I'd like for friends to read some stuff, not the kind of stuff I write here, but stuff... You know. Anyway, these ideas have nothing to do with the time issue (obviously), there are just things I would like.

Anyway, everytime I think about this, I realize I can't get rid of Forever 17. There are also many reasons for keeping it.

I've made so many friends through this blog and without it I would lose part of the "connection". I could still read blogs but nobody would read mine. I also love to read my old posts and remember those days, and I love sharing things here, things that nobody knows.

So, just for now I won't quit. =)

Any ideas?

XoXo
Gaby

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