Life's not good at the moment. I'm doing terribly at school and it's bringing me down. I keep trying (studying really hard) and all I get out of it are 60's or 70's. Maybe I'm just not that bright...?

There's a big chance I won't make it to the second year, and the idea of repeating the first year... I can't even describe the damage that would do to my self-esteem.

I'm starting to believe I can't do this. Maybe this isn't right for me, but I don't know where to go. I don't have another plan. I don't want to drop out, but I really don't want to repeat the first year. I've never felt so stupid, so dumb, so... mediocre.

I'm still trying to get through it all, I'm still studying, and trying to think positive, though it's impossible at this point. All I have are bad grades.

Finals are coming, and I couldn't feel more unprepared.

Anyway, I won't blog for a while I guess.

See you guys later.

XoXo

Gaby

My throat hurts, I was finally going out tonight but I guess not anymore. It sucks, I've had this super long weekend (4 days) and I haven't done anything with it. I've been watching Gilmore Girls, sleeping, and now I'm sick, so I won't go out tonight. So lame... I've also been reading "The Historian" by Elizabeth Kostova. I was looking forward to finishing it this weekend, but maybe I won't cause I really have to study for the tests coming next week, starting of with Radiology. I've always failed this subject, so, wish me luck.

The other subjects worrying my poor mind are Histology and Cell Biology. Anatomy isn't that much of a problem anymore, but I hope I do good. Anyway, that's enough of school. Though it should all be about school starting from now cause finals are coming soon, really soon. Besides, there's nothing else going on in my life lately. I just wanted to let you know I'm still alive. So. Good.

XoXo
Gaby