Fruitless as well
posted by Gabriela on Tuesday, June 24, 2008| 2 Comments

Last time I blogged, I kept complaining about how bored I was, and describing over and over my unproductive summer. By Friday I decided I was going out, anywhere but home. I almost wish I hadn't done anything about it, and had read and entire book in two days instead. But we'll get to that later.

So, just as I was heading up to do something about my boring situation, Danny called, and told me we really had to go out, and have some fun, because she was just as bored as I was. She also gave me a year's worth of gossip (it still brings a smile to my face). So, we talked a lot, gossip and some other things, and I think that whole contact with the outside world, even if it was just through a phone conversation, made me feel really good, or maybe it was the juicy juicy gossip. So, there I was ready to go out and have some real fun. Little did I know that the night would be just a little less pathetic than staying at home. Anyway, Danny thought dancing was the way to go, and I obviously agreed. We invited almost everyone we could, but surprisingly there were only three of us. So, there was the first sign that the night would be a complete... I was about to say disaster, but it wasn't even that, it was just a complete nothing. In spite of this I thought we could definitely rescue the night. Long story short: we went to three different clubs, hoping that one of them would not mind letting in a minor (Danny), or would buy our really crappy story, or her stupid fake ID. Well, the people at the three different clubs were quite clever... We begged, well, Danny did and it didn't work. So, we ended up in a café drinking frappuchino and eating pie. It doesn't seem bad, but it was! I wanted a fun wild night, and there's nothing wild about pie.

After that, I decided Saturday was definitely going to be different, I wouldn't allow myself to have one more boring night. And I thought maybe I could compromise, but still have a somehow wild night. Then, Val called, inviting me to go to a cabin with some of her friends. She invested almost an hour of her life trying to convince me about it (and some gossip too of course), I just didn't know if it was going to work, because they were her friends and I didn't even know them, and I didn't want to be uncomfortable or bored, and unable to return home freezing in a faraway cabin. After all, she convinced me, and I lied to my mom so I could go. Actually I didn't lie, I didn't need to, cause she asked no questions, she never does. I only asked for a ride, and that was it. I don't know if she would have been okay with letting me go had she known all the details, but I wished she hadn't. So, I went to my friend's house, and we waited a few hours for the other guys to pick us up. The thing kind of got all messed up, and we started to fear that the whole thing wouldn't happen. Ok, I was relieved, this way I could go home. But no, these guys had to make this happen, whatever it took (my time!). So off we went, following an alternative plan, with various steps, each one of them with multiple complications, and a HUGE possibilty of ruin the night. After a while, I started to realize there was something about the whole situation I wasn't understanding, so I asked Val what was the real deal. And she told me they wanted to get weed, and that was what the whole evening was about, and naive me, thought it was all about healthy drinking. She thought that if I knew about it, I wouldn't have accepted to go, so she didn't tell me. So, similar to Friday night, but with some variations, we went all over town searching for weed, and couldn't buy any. Long story short: we went to a different cabin, on a different car, just four of us even though we were six when the adventure started. Alternative plan, remember? The whole night, or what was left of it, cause we spent so much time planning, and driving all around town, ended up being nothing. Familiar with that? Yeah, I thought so. So we arrived our final destination at some hour of the morning, and basically slept after a little shisha and chat. The only thing I remember about this particular chat was my drunk friend telling me that and old fat enemy of mine was thin now, and looked super good (yeah, those were her words, can you believe it?). I hate it when people I hate get thinner, and I know she's not as thin as me, but I don't want to be left behind I have to lose weight, right now. I know that was highly irrelevant, but I needed to get that out. Ok, so, as you can see, Saturday night was fruitless as well.

On Sunday morning I called my mom so she would pick me up at my friend's house, on our way home, she asked me: "You went to the movies?" And I answered: "No". "So what did you do?" "Nothing, nothing really..."


P.S. About today: I went to H-E-B (one of my favorite places) with my mom, and saw the cutest guy ever, I had forgotten there are cute guys out there, and he looked like the kind of cute I like. Oh, and I'm now reading "La señora de los sueños" by Sara Sefchovich.

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Dying already
posted by Gabriela on Tuesday, June 17, 2008| 1 Comments

Today (or should I say yesterday since it's 1:00 am) has been one of my less productive days. I took a shower thinking a classmate would come by to drop a book. Had I known he wouldn't come...

I called my friend to wish her a happy birhday, it was weird, but at least I did it. Just get it out of the way you know. Yeah, I'm that bad with festivities.

A friend called to invite me to a party from school, but I had no intention to go even if I told her I would think about it. I thought I would miss this people (classmates), but I don't. First it was like, I missed school because it was an excuse to see them, but now I think I'm enjoying my time away from them too much. Please, notice how pathetic I am, here I am, telling you how I didn't even want to go to this party cause it would be boring and I didn't want to see this people, yet, anything there would have been more exciting than what I've been doing these days. Really, I've been in my house, sleeping, watching TV, and reading, the whole time by myself. Believe me, I love doing all of these things, and I missed these activities, but I should be out. It's just that...I have no available friends, for whatever reason, there's not much to do. The only thing I've done, is going to the movies (once), and that's not the wild night I need. Don't get me wrong, you know I'm not that wild.

I've just realized, it's been only about a week of vacation. It felt like a month... A week and I'm dying already, I suck at this.


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Various ideas
posted by Gabriela on Sunday, June 15, 2008| 1 Comments

Having free time has given me a chance to think about new ways of improving as a person, and various ideas have crossed my mind. For instance, I was thinking about taking swimming lessons. I know how to swim, but I suck. I don't think I even swim, I just float. Besides I would burn calories, and that would not suck at all. Losing weight this summer would make me so happy. Imagine returning to school thinner, without my round face, and with better thighs. Now, that's a nice thought. You should see my face while I think about it. Ok, back on Earth. I don't know if I will do the swimming thing. I have certain concerns, one of them being, are they going to put me with the little kids? I don't really mind, it could be embarrasing, but what concerns me actually is that they'll probably do better than me. Or maybe not.. and I could be the star of the swimming class, for the first time in my life. I would share some of my wisdom with the little ones. Ok, now I'm dreaming again. Wait, what is Gael Garcia suddenly doing in my dream? Oh, yeah, he's in all my dreams.

I was also thinking of starting to jog, or walk, or jog/walk. The weight issue is really bothering me you see. My enormous cheeks are quite a problem. Most of you don't know my face and if you knew, you would say I'm overreacting because my face isn't even round, it's just that my cheeks are so weird and they've always bothered me. So I have to get rid of them, and losing weight is my last hope. The other option would be surgery, but that's a little extreme. So, I'll try losing weight first. I mean, it worked for Hilary Duff. And I know many of you think that she looked better before, but her thin face is my inspiration. At this point I have to say....please, believe me I'm not as pathetic as I sound.

Ok, so those are enough ideas for today. More coming soon, though.

Anyway, in other news. I keep being productive. Today I did laundry and...oh well, that's about it. But it is Sunday, and I took a shower, and that's a big step for me on a Sunday.

Tomorrow's a friend's birthday, I hope I don't forget (I do that a lot). And I hope it's not all weird cause I haven't seen my friends in a while, and they don't really care about me. I don't blame them. I've done some damage. Oh, sometimes I suck.


Oye niño no tengas miedo. ¿No lo entiendes? Se lo que quiero. Oye niño, tú serás mío, sabes bien que sólo te quiero a tí.

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I hate small talk
posted by Gabriela on Saturday, June 14, 2008| 2 Comments

I keep being productive these days. Today I went to the dentist, which I hate. I hate the taste of the water there, can't they use regular water?! I hate dentists asking you stuff and expecting you to answer with your mouth open and weird instruments inside. I hate having to do small talk. I hate small talk. I hate people. Ok, ok, I don't hate dentists, they're good, but everything they do is so uncomfortable and painful. Oh yeah, and my teeth hurt, really hurt cause they adjusted my braces. So, I'm in deep horrible pain. Ok, now I'm being a drama queen. I can live with it actually, as long as I don't eat. Anyway, it shouldn't last much. Besides everytime I go to the dentist I tell myself that I'm closer to the perfect smile I've always wanted. I can't wait actually. So, it will be worth it I guess.

You know, having all this time has given me time to miss my school books, yeah, my histology book, and my anatomy book. Those are the ones I miss the most. Maybe the word "missing" isn't right, I just kind of want to grab a book and read a chapter, just to learn stuff I have already forgotten. I mean, I know I'll need it someday. I've been trying to put it off for some days, but I will go and read soon, I can feel it.

So, what else? Still reading "The Historian", and looking forward to reading something new. Still watching Gilmore Girls, the 4th season.

So I find a reason to shave my legs each single morning. So I count on someone on Friday night to take me dancing and then to church on Sundays.

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Productive days
posted by Gabriela on Friday, June 13, 2008| 2 Comments

I know yesterday I said I would try to catch up with all of you guys, but I realized it's quite impossible. Most of you have 20 and something new posts or 10 super long posts. So, I would appreciate if you could just leave a comment with updates you consider important or interesting. Anyway, I'll be reading you. I won't catch up, but I'll be reading what's recently new.

So my days have been quite "productive" lately. I've been doing stuff I've been meaning to do but I hadn't because of school. I've been reading "The Historian", as I said yesterday. I also got rid of some facebook applications. You could say I cleaned a little. I used a nose thingy that...hmm, now what do you call it? I know the name in Spanish, anyway, the point is I made something good for my face, and for my skin, and now my nose is soft and clean. I love it. I can't believe I never tried it before. So what else did I do? Oh, yeah. I finished watching the third season of Gilmore Girls, now I'll watch season 4 and 5, because I recently bought them. So, that should be fun. It's Friday and I'm really hoping to do something, but I'm starting to think maybe I wont't. I've been absent for a while and now it's all weird and my friends kind of don't give a damn about me. I've never been 100% "there", you know. That is one of my flaws.


If we were a movie, you'd be the right guy. And I'd be the best friend that you'd fall in love with.


I'll try to catch up
posted by Gabriela on Thursday, June 12, 2008| 2 Comments

Hello everyone

I'm back. And done with school.

I believe this is my 200th post, but I can't think of anything special to do about it, so I'll just blog the usual.

I think the school year was good, I managed to get a few 80's in the end, so that's enough. And I did make it to second year, and that's awesome. I thought I never would. So I'm feeling good, quite good.

Now I have this summer to relax, and that's what I've been doing these days. I've been watching Gilmore Girls, reading "The Historian", playing Neopets (yeah, hmm). And soon I'll be heading to read all of your blogs, I'm sure I've missed a lot, but I'll try to catch up. =)

Anyway, not much to say today, just letting you know everything worked out perfectly (almost).

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