Today (or should I say yesterday since it's 1:00 am) has been one of my less productive days. I took a shower thinking a classmate would come by to drop a book. Had I known he wouldn't come...

I called my friend to wish her a happy birhday, it was weird, but at least I did it. Just get it out of the way you know. Yeah, I'm that bad with festivities.

A friend called to invite me to a party from school, but I had no intention to go even if I told her I would think about it. I thought I would miss this people (classmates), but I don't. First it was like, I missed school because it was an excuse to see them, but now I think I'm enjoying my time away from them too much. Please, notice how pathetic I am, here I am, telling you how I didn't even want to go to this party cause it would be boring and I didn't want to see this people, yet, anything there would have been more exciting than what I've been doing these days. Really, I've been in my house, sleeping, watching TV, and reading, the whole time by myself. Believe me, I love doing all of these things, and I missed these activities, but I should be out. It's just that...I have no available friends, for whatever reason, there's not much to do. The only thing I've done, is going to the movies (once), and that's not the wild night I need. Don't get me wrong, you know I'm not that wild.

I've just realized, it's been only about a week of vacation. It felt like a month... A week and I'm dying already, I suck at this.

XoXo
Gaby

I'm proud to say I've finished reading Mal de Amores by Angeles Mastretta. I don't know why, but finishing books has been harder lately. Now I'm reading Lust for Life by Irving Stone, and I'm loving it so far. Mal de Amores was not my kind of novel, I've just accepted that I'm not into romantic novels. I didn't love The Notebook and apparently everyone did but me, because I'm the Grinch or something. So, I'll avoid any romantic novel. What is wrong with me? Doesn't every girl in the planet love romantic novels?

Anyway.

Good news. I already have my driving license, it was surprisingly easy. The weird thing: I'm not done with my driving lessons. It's a long/frustrating story, I planned everything to be over by Friday, but it's Tuesday and I'm still not sure of when I'll be done. Ok, the point is: I'm almost there.

Yesterday I went to the movies with my mom and saw Juno, which I loved. At some point I cried. You know? I cry too much with movies, sometimes I even cry with the movie trailers. A little bit stupid, I know.

After the movie she bought me some make up: a black eye liner and awesome eye shadows. I would post a picture of those beautiful eye shadows but it wouldn't capture their awesomeness. I can't wait to use them, but they're the kind of shadows for parties. And I don't see a party coming soon, so I'm totally dying here, and wearing them on an ordinary day won't do.

I'm so bored by the way, I mean, my reading is great but I really need to get out. And I don't mean the movies or out for dinner, I need loud music and drunk friends, and alcohol, and all those beautiful things.

In other news...

I finally found a friend that shares my frustration, a frustration that has been killing me since quite a long time. I tortured myself thinking I was being crazy for feeling that way, but turns out it is completely human and understandable, still stupid, but at least I know someone feels the same way, and just as me, she really doesn't know how to make things right.

Now you don't know what I'm talking about. I think I explained it before, but it wouldn't make any good for me to mention it once again. They are like the most selfish sentiments ever. And you've already seen too much of my selfish self.

XoXo
Gaby