I shared my secret with one of my closest friends this afternoon. I thought it was a big important secret, but it's not. She wasn't surprised or anything. What secret? You ask. Well, Forever 17 is one of my most significant secrets and a part of my life that nobody knows of.

Just the thought of somebody reading this, somebody who knows me in real life, I just can't imagine what I'd do. But I've just realized, that maybe it's not a big deal. I mean, is this blog as interesting and revealing as I think it is?

I think it's a normal blog about a normal life for anyone who doesn't know me, but I've always thought that people who know me in real life would find here something they don't know about me. But, what do I know? Maybe I'm not as mysterious as I think I am. Maybe I'm predictable and transparent. And that's scary... that would mean that people see the depressed, lonely, and scared person I am, not to mention self-centered.

Now, I don't know what I'll do. I just told her that I had a blog but didn't tell her how to find it, so I can get out of it. I think I have an idea, I'll just give her a better secret. I just have to think about one. Any ideas?

XoXo
Gaby

I've considered quitting this blog so many times, I don't even know why am I still blogging. There are so many reasons for quitting but the most significant lately is the fact that I have no time for this, I don't even have time for my school activities. I hate neglecting this blog, I really do. I hate not blogging often, and I wish I could do so everyday. But things have gotten a little hectic.

I've had other ideas, like replacing this blog with a new one but in Spanish, or starting a new one that isn't private so my friends could read it. Believe it or not, sometimes I'd like for friends to read some stuff, not the kind of stuff I write here, but stuff... You know. Anyway, these ideas have nothing to do with the time issue (obviously), there are just things I would like.

Anyway, everytime I think about this, I realize I can't get rid of Forever 17. There are also many reasons for keeping it.

I've made so many friends through this blog and without it I would lose part of the "connection". I could still read blogs but nobody would read mine. I also love to read my old posts and remember those days, and I love sharing things here, things that nobody knows.

So, just for now I won't quit. =)

Any ideas?

XoXo
Gaby

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This is my 100th post, and I thought it would be nice to do something special, since it took me this long to get to this post, mostly because I procrastinate A LOT. So, I was thinking and considered remembering some of my posts throughout Forever 17's history (which is not much). So I started reading, and I really saw myself growing up, or whatever it is. There was some evolution for this girl. And after reading some posts I read the comments on them, and I came up with a better idea.

I want to thank everyone who visits, reads or comments. I would have given up on blogging if it wasn't for you. LOL.

First I want to thank Celise Downs. Today, the depressed me went to visit her blog and noticed there was something different about it, a whole new look. So I clicked and clicked with curiosity, I read, downloaded, typed, watched, and submitted. And she totally inspired me, the depressed me was a little motivated I must say. Reading about her accomplishments, goals, and experiences, somehow touched me.

Then I visited Bianca over at Stir Fry Kitty, and found a new banner. I was not surprised though, she tends to change banners, I don't know how she comes up with such colorful ideas. So, I started reading her latest post, and once again I was motivated. Depressed me was less depressed. She has so many new plans and she made me think about my own. She's so determined, that's the Bianca I know.

Then I moved on to Kat's place, her blog is called "Stuck in the teenage years". I guess that's why we both enjoy reading each others blogs, we're both stuck in this. I haven't been reading her blog lately, but I read her latest entry and it was refreshing, it was as if I was reading something written by the happy me.

Then I visited Will at The Search for Health in Decadence, found a new poem. And I remembered how his poetry had fascinated me in the first place, and it was the reason for having him as my renter for a week. Then I found a friend, a poet, and an amazing person.

The next blog on the list was Croaker's Corner, I was visiting after a long time. I read the latest post, and it was so entertaining. I was not surprised about this. Everytime I read his posts and I'm about to comment I want to say it was so entertaining and well written, but I try not to because it would be too repetitive. And that just wouldn't work. So I come up with something else. But believe me, there's something about his posts.

My last visit, and my last special thank you goes to Miss Misery Smiles, she's a lot like me, probably because we're both teenagers. She blogs more than I do though. It's so much fun to read all of her posts. We've been emailing, which reminds me... I think I have to check my mail. Anyway, she has always been there, and it's like she really gets me. So thank you for that.

Oh, and meeting all these fascinating bloggers wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for Blog Explosion. So, thanks Blog Explosion for existing. Such a friendly place to be...

So here it ends.

If I didn't thank someone. I probably will in 200th post, and it won't take as long as this one did. I promise. Talking about promises, here are some:

I promise I will:

• Blog more often
• Share more than I already do
  
• Read more often my favorite blogs

These promises are a lot for me I have to say, especially the second one. I am a little paranoid about my blog life and my real life somehow meeting each other. I don't know if this makes sense, if you're a blogger, I think it does.

Thanks to everyone, to the teenagers and adults. You both have something different to offer, and I'm glad I can have both advice and understanding. =)

XoXo
Gaby