Yesterday was such and overwhelming day. I spent most of the day being stressed because of homework, things I had study, and the McDreamy-Crooked Teeth incident. In the end it all sort of worked out, well, kind of.

Ok, so... Remember the McDreamy-Crooked Teeth incident? It totally blew up in my face. Long story short: McDreamy thinks I lied about the whole thing. I thought he would be mean to me because of this, but he was "cool" about it. So it was okay. But it's not THAT okay because I didn't lie.

And the other thing... Remember my stupid perfect movie-like thing? It's everything but perfect. Turns out, that when this guy (let's call him movie guy) said that his friend liked me, he was saying the truth, it was his friend and not him. So let me tell you how it happened.

I was doing homework with Danny, and then movie guy arrives with a friend. The moment that he introduced his friend, I knew it... It was his friend and not him who liked me. Danny realized it too but she kept being annoying about it, making fun of the guy because he likes me, she made the most illogical comments... and really thought I didn't notice at all. I kept pretending I had no idea of what was going on, I really didn't know what to do, and the whole thing was embarrassing so it was the best thing I could think of.

I was so busy and stressed because of homework, that I didn't pay much attention to him. But just the idea of someone liking me that way (not knowing me), is so weird. I mean, I had never ever noticed this guy before, and he likes me? Anyway, I was a little upset because it was not the movie guy, and even more upset because the movie guy seems to like another friend. On the other side the guy that does like me seems good, he's cute, and nice.

Meanwhile, Danny told everyone (all classmates) about this guy who likes me ... that's what she calls "express gossip". Oh, and I think my friends asked them (these two guys) to go out on Friday, and they keep telling this guy that he has to go because I'm going. And even though, I love being the center of attention from time to time, I don't know what to say when my friends keep asking me if I like him, and saying he's not ugly (their words, not mine).

I know one thing, I will not tell them I'm considering it, that would really set them off. But truth is, maybe, I mean..he's cute, seems nice, and he likes me. So, we'll see.

XoXo
Gaby

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I did something really really bitchy, and I truly regret it. It's not THAT bitchy, but it IS bitchy to me, because I'm not a bitch on a daily basis. Okay. Stop with the bitchin'.

So, there's this guy I hate, despise, and can't stand. He's so conceited, he thinks he's the best, and he's so mean. He has laughed at me several times, and that's the reason why I don't speak to him at all, well...sometimes I'm mean too. But what am I supposed to do? Be good to him? Hell no!

Okay, now...Remember McDreamy (a really cute guy)?

This guy I hate (let's call him Crooked Teeth) totally hates him, and I've concluded that the reason why he hates him is that McDreamy is hot, smart, cool, nice, cute and.... wait, what was I talking about? Oh yeah, and Crooked Teeth is nothing compared to him. Most of the guys envy McDreamy, but not to the point of hating him, so Crooked Teeth is quite pathetic.

Anyway, last Friday he was talking trash about adorable McDreamy, saying that we were all (all of his students) sick of him. Hello! That's only him! So, later that day... I was leaving school and saw McDreamy, and he said hi...Oh my God...so nice, right? Oh, yeah. But that's not it.

After that, I sort of started telling him about this Crooked Teeth guy, and what he was saying about him, and how he hated him. I can't believe I did it, that's so unlike me. And what worries me is the fact that it could turn into a big problem, because McDreamy has some power over us (not because he's hot, but because he's kind of our teacher), and he could focus all of his anger on Crooked Teeth. That would be great, and I would really enjoy it if it wasn't my fault, but basically it was entirely my fault. I never do stuff like this (creating big drama), I tend to let someone else do the dirty job, and I always thought that sooner or later everyone would realize what an idiot Crooked Teeth is.

So...I'm a little worried about tomorrow. What I really hope is that no one finds out that it was me, or that it happened.

Lessons learned:

• Not to make Danny's ideas mine, yeah, it was her idea on the first place. It just made sense at the moment, and I had the opportunity and did it. Dammit!
  
• Let someone else do that bitchy things that I obviously can't do without turning everything into guilt.
• Not let my hatred for Crooked Teeth and my love for McDreamy change my behavior.
• If I ever do something bitchy again, and I think I will, do not feel this guilty about it.
  

XoXo
Gaby

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