I can't believe it's actually going to happen.

I've always been worried and scared about my future. I want so much in life, but I have so little, and I wonder if I will ever accomplish everything I want. I have few things in life, which I don't take for granted. I'm thankful for everything I have in life, but that's not enough when you're trying to survive in this world.

I have what most people would call low self-esteem, and I can't help it....I don't have any talent, I don't feel like I'm capable of actually doing something in life. But today, I realized that maybe life will give me something that I know I can't possibly deserve, but still, I'm going to have, what I've always wanted...the future that I've dreamed of.

Maybe it will happen, maybe it won't...but today I felt, that I may actually have a chance, I'm on the right path. Maybe life will make it up to me, after all I've been through. Maybe I deserve it. I don't know...

I've always felt that life's been good to me in a way, everything I've really wanted and needed, I've had it. I've had a somehow hard life but I wouldn't change anything about it, I've had a few amazing things, that were all worth it. And that's just...beautiful.

I always get what I want...that sounds awful but it's true, when I've wanted something so much, I've had it...Can it be possible that this will happen once more?

XoXo
Gaby