Uncertainty.
That's what I hate about being seventeen. I mean: "How can you be sure?". Everything's so overwhelming, every decision is so important in your life. And you can't even stop to think or cry about things, because life's too short, and next thing you know, you have already lost your chance. And maybe, uncertainty follows everyone forever, but right now, at this point of my life, it's just more than I can deal with.
Maybe this is a little too much, and I'm making a storm out of a glass of water, but it all started today when I failed my Calculus test. I know, I know, it's just a test, it doesn't mean that I can't do anything right, I'll do better the next time, I'll learn from this mistake...believe me, I know all of those.
It's just that it made me think a lot about my academic skills, if any. How am I going to manage being in college? There will be more pressure, and new things for me. Things that I haven't tried yet, and have no idea about. I will be exposed to a different environment, and to different subjects, different academic level. And I'll be by myself. Even if right now I feel that I'm by myself, I know that in college it will be just me. And it scares me a lot, but it has to be done.
The thing is that I want to be a doctor so badly, but I don't know if I've got what it takes. Maybe I should try something different, but I don't know what. I don't think I have any talent. And I know, I know, that everyone's supposed to have some talent, but I just don't have it. Well, I can pick up things from the floor with my toes but I don't think this will help me with my career choice. Right now you may be thinking that I have no self-esteem at all, but I think I have a little.
I know I can do something with myself, I just don't know how.
By the way don't forget to visit the cool blog over there. =)
And that's the only smile you'll see here today.
XoXo
Gaby
That's what I hate about being seventeen. I mean: "How can you be sure?". Everything's so overwhelming, every decision is so important in your life. And you can't even stop to think or cry about things, because life's too short, and next thing you know, you have already lost your chance. And maybe, uncertainty follows everyone forever, but right now, at this point of my life, it's just more than I can deal with.
Maybe this is a little too much, and I'm making a storm out of a glass of water, but it all started today when I failed my Calculus test. I know, I know, it's just a test, it doesn't mean that I can't do anything right, I'll do better the next time, I'll learn from this mistake...believe me, I know all of those.
It's just that it made me think a lot about my academic skills, if any. How am I going to manage being in college? There will be more pressure, and new things for me. Things that I haven't tried yet, and have no idea about. I will be exposed to a different environment, and to different subjects, different academic level. And I'll be by myself. Even if right now I feel that I'm by myself, I know that in college it will be just me. And it scares me a lot, but it has to be done.
The thing is that I want to be a doctor so badly, but I don't know if I've got what it takes. Maybe I should try something different, but I don't know what. I don't think I have any talent. And I know, I know, that everyone's supposed to have some talent, but I just don't have it. Well, I can pick up things from the floor with my toes but I don't think this will help me with my career choice. Right now you may be thinking that I have no self-esteem at all, but I think I have a little.
I know I can do something with myself, I just don't know how.
By the way don't forget to visit the cool blog over there. =)
And that's the only smile you'll see here today.
XoXo
Gaby
2 Comments:
Okay Gaby life is not short it is very, very long. don't sweat the small things to much your choices like everyones are half chance.
Set your goals and keep moving in that direction. You are not alone you have many people routing for you out there.
You will figure it out eventually. I promise. I'm almost 30, and I've just recently figure out my career. I certainly don't have anything else figured out, though.
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