Unwanted
posted by Gabriela on Saturday, June 30, 2007|

I feel so unwanted at this moment. I know that I have friends and a family who cares. I just don't feel it. So what's the point? Why does this happen? Does this happen to everyone? Am I asking for too much attention?

Let me describe my situation. It's Saturday night and I want someone to call me to go some place, anywhere you know. But at the same time, I don't feel like going anywhere. Wherever I go nobody really cares about me or is interested in me. I can't blame them, I'm quiet, therefore, not really interesting, funny or entertaining.

I'm so...depressed.

What should I do? Go out even if everyone ignores me and I have to get drunk to not care? Or stay home and be okay even if this is a reminder of my depression? Hmm though going out would be a reminder of my uninterestingness. Hmmm...

I'm so boring.


XoXo
Gaby

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6 Comments:

Blogger mad said... on 5:02 PM  

I bet you're way more interesting than you give yourself credit for.

Blogger Unknown said... on 1:23 AM  

Thanks for visiting and commenting on my journal. Yours looks great and I'll be stopping by often.

A agree with mad, I'm sure you're a very interesting person. Hell of a lot more than most people. I'm hardly one to be giving advice on this (I'm practically a hermit as it is.) but I think that if you have something you're not happy about, then you have to be the one to change it. If you're lonely, trust me, staying in won't help. Just my two cents. Though, I have to say, isolationism isn't all that bad.

Anonymous Anonymous said... on 1:34 PM  

Ditto Mad and Christina. As Celise would say, "it's always the quiet ones."

Anonymous Anonymous said... on 1:37 PM  

Honestly? There are days when I have second thoughts about getting married because it seems like we lead such independent lives. There are times when I wish I was alone and living alone. Maybe that's just the type of person you are. I love doing things by myself (going to the movies, going to dinner or breakfast, checking out the theater, etc). You CAN be your own best friend, Gabs. There's nothing wrong with that. (See SARK's new book: Fabulous Friendship Festival)

Blogger Gabriela said... on 8:28 PM  

mad:

I wouldn't know.

christina:

Thanks for visiting. I did go to that thing, but the reasons were not the right ones. It's nice to see someone understanding isolationism isn't that bad.

draven atreides:

Thanks I guess.

celise:

Hmmm, I'm not sure about that. I think I'm my worst friend. I hate myself, you know. I could try, maybe someday.

Blogger andy said... on 2:36 AM  

i feel that way all the time im stuck overseas from my family and i have to go to others just to have someone to talk to. keep your chin up you are doing fine

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