I'm so exhausted right now. I've been wondering if there's something for me in this world. I'm starting to think there's nothing, but here I am. Still alive. So, let's see what happens tomorrow.
Today I received a phone call. Believe it or not, this is weird in my life. It was a friend, my best friend. It was as if she read my mind, as if she knew I was in need of someone. Maybe just a coincidence.
As I was telling her about yesterday's drama, I could feel my voice and hands trembling. She's the only one who knows it. I'm ashamed of everything, and I just thought that nobody would really understand without judging. But I had forgotten, she always understands. I don't even have to explain, I don't even have to convince her. She just gets it, and she doesn't judge me. I'm glad I have her as a friend. And hopefully I'll keep her. There's always hope, even if I've learned nothing lasts forever.
Today I received a phone call. Believe it or not, this is weird in my life. It was a friend, my best friend. It was as if she read my mind, as if she knew I was in need of someone. Maybe just a coincidence.
As I was telling her about yesterday's drama, I could feel my voice and hands trembling. She's the only one who knows it. I'm ashamed of everything, and I just thought that nobody would really understand without judging. But I had forgotten, she always understands. I don't even have to explain, I don't even have to convince her. She just gets it, and she doesn't judge me. I'm glad I have her as a friend. And hopefully I'll keep her. There's always hope, even if I've learned nothing lasts forever.
XoXo
Gaby
Gaby
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Hi Gaby, thanks for commenting on my blog and the sweet compliment about my layout, yours is awesome dear!
No, "coldest place ever" didn't sound "stupid" and I don't know exactly what you're going through but I do know the feeling of wanting to escape from everyone and everyone - when it all seems bleak nothing matters...
Courage
A warm hug from me to you
Tisha
I'm glad you have a friend like that. It certainly helps.
I don't know if that saying (nothing lasts forever) is a true one. I've never experienced forever. But I've learned to enjoy the things you have while you have them, that way you'll have fond memories, even if it didn't last forever.
But I'm really hoping theres such thing as forever <3
Oh, and having one good friend certainly helps with the drama of everyday high school life!
Totally diggin' the new skin. I think it's better than the one you had before. And don't be so pessimistic about thinking your friend won't be around. I have two good friends who I've known for over 20 yrs. They stood up with me 3 months ago when I got married. It's hard to find friends like that, so just be sure you're there for her when she needs it.
Like the new look of your blog. Pink is a very restful, relaxing color.
Listen, the only ones who look back on high school with anything other than dread are the people whose entire life ends after high school. You will see them: the cheerleader with 3 kids and a black eye, the football star with the bad knees, the popular girl that marries 3 times before she is 21.
Just get through it and get on to college and the rest of your life. If you ever feel you need to die to stop the pain, you are wrong. Call a friend, dial the hotline, or go to: http://www.sacredspace.ie/
You have your whole life to screw up. High school does not count.
Here for C&C Monday. Have a good week.
Whoa! Nice design!
Matt
tisha, thanks for your comment. I think the whole thing is stupid because I can't really understand it. It's so confusing, and I just wish it was simple.
bianca, it helps a lot.
miss misery, I do that too, but I have lost many things, so it's hard to truly enjoy it. And a best friend helps, though I don't see her often.
geminiwisdom, hopefully I'll keep her. I've lost many friends, so it's hard to be optimistic about it.
cybercelt, that is funny, and it made me feel better. Thanks for your support. Sometimes it does feel like death is the solution, but I know I would never do it. At least not today.
matt, thanks, it's from blogskins.com
Hi Gabriela! It IS wonderful to have friends like that.I've got a best friend like this.. Kristen (I blog about her now and again).. In a world so difficult carrying imperfections as great as humans do..it's nice to have someone to fall back upon, isn't it?
Invisible blogger, it is, it is.
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