I'm starting to see things as they are. My crush is no longer cute. Ok, he's still cute, but he's SO STUPID. I'm more embarassed by what he says in every single class than he is. I don't know if he does it on purpose or if that's just him, but either way, that's not really smart.
About my ex-best friend, I don't know if she's good or bad, so I'll just put her in the bad category, just in case. I don't want to see a real friend in someone who's not AGAIN.
I'm also starting to think about my future in a colder way. I have to think about what's really possible.
It sounds pessimistic, but that's me always. The optimistic point of view seems stupid (that's just my opinion). I mean, let's be realistic. I'm okay with the dreaming part, but when it comes to decisions, and actions I have to be pessimistic. Hoping for the best but expecting the worst.
So, this is real.
My crush---> impossible
My ex- best friend----> probably a bitch
My future----> anything I choose will be too hard for me.
It doesn't mean I won't try. It just means that I know how things really are.
I turned 18 years old, and I still feel like nothing special. Only one more person in this world, but I'm all I have.
About my ex-best friend, I don't know if she's good or bad, so I'll just put her in the bad category, just in case. I don't want to see a real friend in someone who's not AGAIN.
I'm also starting to think about my future in a colder way. I have to think about what's really possible.
It sounds pessimistic, but that's me always. The optimistic point of view seems stupid (that's just my opinion). I mean, let's be realistic. I'm okay with the dreaming part, but when it comes to decisions, and actions I have to be pessimistic. Hoping for the best but expecting the worst.
So, this is real.
My crush---> impossible
My ex- best friend----> probably a bitch
My future----> anything I choose will be too hard for me.
It doesn't mean I won't try. It just means that I know how things really are.
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I turned 18 years old, and I still feel like nothing special. Only one more person in this world, but I'm all I have.
XoXo
Gaby
Gaby
Labels: best friend, crush, future
1 Comments:
Happy belated birthday Gabby!
I'm realisitc too, its okay to hope for the best but you have to think that things might not work out the way you planned. You still try though, and you still work hard. Anything you want to be is worth being, and you'll always acheive it if you work at it.
In response to your comment over at Smiles are Limited, I can't drive either. My parents drive me everywhere too, and I'm really thankful for it. I'm 17 but I'm just not ready to get my licence yet. When I am ready, I will.
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