Hi guys. I'm still alive. Just really busy with school. That's why I haven't written, that and my constant procrastination. Well, at least there's something stable in my life.

I've been changing moods drastically these days. The other day I arrived home, wanting to forget about everything. The catastrophe? I realized everything has consequences. I know it is obvious, but I thought I had escaped from one. Guess what? I didn't.

Remember I slept with a boy? Well, thank God I only slept (really innocent). But since then...things have been confusing.

He used to be my crush, but I had already forgotten about him by then, and that's probably why I wasn't shy that night, that and the tequila. I didn't expect it and still got it. So I thought I was lucky and nothing else would happen afterwards. So wrong...

I can't stop thinking about him. I have to say it. And the other day I realized it. After denying it the whole time. He approached and talked to one of my friends, and I was there. And I couldn't even look at him, just like the old times... And I couldn't say anything, he wasn't just anyone. And I couldn't help noticing what I was for him, just anyone. Again, just like the old times...

That day I felt definitely hopeless. And I still am, just not that desperate.

What can I do...Nothing. School will be over in about a week, and hopefully I'll forget about him. Just like I did before.

I can't believe I did it again. Great, Gaby.

XoXo
Gaby