Ok, ok maybe I've never had a life. But now I'm the most lifeless I could ever be. I spend all day studying, and it's not even enough, I never go to sleep at 10, I get to eat whenever I can, and I don't have time to blog, write, or read something that isn't medical.

I knew it was going to be like this. But now I'm thinking maybe it's not worth it. I mean, who doesn't want a life? But on the other hand, I'm already there...

Oh well. I'll give it a year. Then I'll decide. If I decide to drop out, I think psychology would be my next choice. I love psychology. I also love medicine, but I've already made my point about that.

Sorry if I haven't blogged often, but as I said, I'm lifeless. LOL. I'll try to blog often even if it's short posts like this one.

Overall I'm okay. I'm having a hard time getting everything done, but I will be okay.

XoXo
Gaby

I think it's time for me to describe some of the social changes I've experienced in my new school. See, my new classmates-friends, are so different from what I'm used to. It's nice and frustrating.

* Apparently the normal state of being is "not single". It's so weird, in a group 0f 45 people just about 5 are single, and I'm one of them naturally. This is not how it used to be for me. I was never a minority when being single. But now, everytime I say I'm single they make me feel like it's a disease and I'm about to die. It's so frustrating. So, I need someone NOW, I don't care who it is. Oh, wait, I do. I'm too picky. But it's too "uncomfortable" being single. What should I do? What do you think? And don't tell me to ignore it and forget about it. I need practical advice, not "being patient" crap. Okay. That was quite desperate. I'm just kidding, say anything, as long as it's advice.

* Everyone talks shit about everyone, but apparently everyone "likes" everyone. The other day I said I didn't like someone, and I thought my comment would be welcomed. My bad. Apparently, even though they talk shit of that person, they like her. It's so frustrating. I don't know how it works! Usually, if I don't like something about someone, I don't like that someone. And just so you get a clear idea of why I don't like this particular person... she said I was ugly! In a polite passive agressive way, but still, how dare she? Even if I was the ugliest person in the world and she was the prettiest, she has no right. That bitch!

* They laugh at my jokes. Sometimes I'm not even trying to be funny and they laugh. The other day I said the word "hygienic" and they found it so cute. That's right, they find me cute. And they find me pretty. And all THAT is new. Did I say they laugh at my jokes? It's so weird how, even if I don't really fit in YET, I feel accepted among them. Suddenly I'm not that forgetable.

I'm making an effort to adjust to all these changes. Meanwhile I have one new girlfriend. I don't know why she likes me. But thank God. I don't know what I'd do without her. A girl always needs at least one girlfriend. Don't you think?

XoXo
Gaby

P.S. I forgot to mention how yesterday went, let's just say it was fun and harmless. I'm glad I didn't miss it. And I was 99% sober.

My classmates convinced me... I'll go to the suspicious "welcome party" held by the fifth year students. Even though, something could happen to us (first year students), I'll go... Whatever. I didn't want to go because, there are some stories about what happens there. And I was scared.

So what made me change my mind? Why suddenly I'm not scared of what could happen to me? Because there's alcohol involved. So, I won't have to get through it sober. Alcohol always does the trick. ;)

So I don't care if they throw me at a hole full of entrails. I couldn't care less!! I'll make sure I'm quite drunk by the time I get to that, and maybe I won't even remember anything by Sunday.

Wish me luck. =P

XoXo
Gaby

It was not what I expected. I was hoping for the best but expecting the worst. And it wasn't any of those. It was so lame. It could have been worse though. See, medical school here has a tradition, an awful tradition if you ask me. I think it happens in every school, but in my new school it's horrible, and this isn't just me being a drama queen as always. It is terrible, I won't give details, but believe me, what they do to first year students is very disturbing. So I was a little scared today about it but nothing happened.

There was a rumor that nothing would be done this year for some weird reason, but I didn't believe it, and I still don't. I'll wait for this first week to be over to forget about it, meanwhile I'll be psychologically prepared for all sorts of humilliation.

Hmm...so, my first day at school which I thought would be special, wasn't that at all. But I won't complain. You know me. Yeah, right.

XoXo
Gaby

P.S. I'll be using a book called Gray's Anatomy. How cool is that? Ok, that's stupid, but hey, I found it amusing.

1. Creep by Radiohead

I want you to notice
when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here.

2. Meet You There by Simple Plan

I wish I could have told you,
The things I kept inside,
But now I guess it's just too late.
So many things remind me of you,
I hope that you can hear me,
I miss you,
This is goodbye,
One last time..

3. Fix you by Coldplay

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

4. Que Hago Yo by Ha-Ash

Mis amigos dicen que te olvide
Que antes de ti no era igual
Antes de ti mi vida no tenia sentido
Antes de ti no sabia amar

Translation:

My friends tell me I should forget you,
That before you I wasn't the same,
Before you my life was senseless,
Before you I didn't know how to love.

5. Crush by Angels and Airwaves

Down on love
I'm so tired, I've had enough
I always thought that it would get better
Maimed and numb, i have been too wrong to feel
I've died, for this dream

6. Emotionless by Good Charlotte

It’s been a long hard road without you by my side
Why weren’t you there the nights that we cried
You broke my mother’s heart
You broke your children for life
It’s not ok but we’re alright

7. Ya Nada Queda by Kudai

Puedo oír tu voz, diciendo el adiós
destruyendo toda la ilusión
ya no quiero hablar, ni quiero pensar
ni siquiera puedo imaginar
que al fin te iras de mi lugar

Translation:

I can hear your voice saying the goodbye
destroying all illusion.
I don't want to talk, I don't want to think
I don't even want to imagine,
That you'll finally be leaving my place

8. Teardrops On My Guitar by Taylor Swift

I bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

9. Wreck of the Day by Anna Nalick

'Cuz love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And if this is giving up then I'm giving up

10. Now You Know by Hilary Duff

Feel so light
Craving oxygen
All this truth's left me empty
Will you run
Can you handle it
Cause I need you to tell me
Maybe this is bold
But I’m hoping you’ll stay for the happy ending



I highly recommend all of these songs, they're mostly pop songs, so if you don't like pop music, you probably shouldn't download some of them. Anyway, I don't know if it's just me, but sometimes I feel like I need to hear sad songs, and these are the ones. What are yours? Please, do share. =)

XoXo
Gaby

Yesterday was the funniest day ever. Ok, I'm exaggerating as usual. But it was a fun learning experience, and that is completely true.

I knew it was going to be an interesting day, but I thought it would probably be one of those tough days for me. But it wasn't. I was quite happy about my job throughout the morning after all.

We (most of the students) measured blood pressure for about three hours or more. Our ears were hurting at the end because of the stethoscope, and of course, I was the first one to complain. I hate complaining but believe me, it did hurt. Fortunately, the fifth year students were kind and let me take a break. I had already learned everything there was to learn about measuring blood pressure, so I think it was a well deserved break.

Overall it was a well spent day, except for the hurting ears. But I got to see my classmates, I learned thoroughly about measuring blood pressure, and after eighteen years of thinking my blood type was A positive they told me it was O positive. Oh, and something worth mentioning... the second year students treat us like trash. I guess they're really happy because they aren't "the first year students" anymore. I didn't expect anything different though.

XoXo
Gaby

Today's my last day of freedom and I'm sitting here blogging about it. It was a boring stupid day, I didn't even get to watch Hannah Montana. And you probably don't know it, but I'm a huge Hannah Montana fan. Who would have known?

I should be sleeping, I'll have to wake up tomorrow at 7:00 AM. But here I am. I know I can't resist blogging, even if I don't have much to tell. Just like this time.

Anyway, I couldn't watch Hannah Montana because it was raining too much. And water got into my house, even into my room. It was not a terrible situation, but there was no cable so I had to listen to the radio, because there was nothing on TV. And I had to mop, which I didn't because my mom did. So that was good because I don't even know how to mop.

I should stop this post. I just wanted to let you know my last day of freedom was a stupid crappy boring one. Tomorrow should be interesting though.

XoXo
Gaby